My Time to Kill Time
Monday, June 22, 2015
CPOD: Let it go
Happiness
Happiness is what you define every second of your life
Sometimes it is success
Sometimes it is achievement
Sometimes it is your baby's smile
Sometimes it is you who is stepping on crap and still enjoying it
Happiness is within ourselves
Don't not regret your mistakes
Be happy you had an opportunity to make one
Do not linger on your losses
You had a learning of a lifetime
Feel lucky , take chances
Maybe it won't work out for you
I assure you that you have created a world of experience for the world you live in and in love with a beautiful uncredited gift
Singularly you may not make a difference
But all a generation needs is a thought to make a difference
Sunday, June 21, 2015
Poetic Kill: Choices and life
A fear of your future unseen
Makes you live a life deprived
The ghosts of your past
Haunts you to the darkest part of your self
I have lost my way
Because of something I gave away
I search a new path
Without pain or wrath
No more a man in wait of peace
No more a man in want of truth
My failures became my prudence
My fear became ego
My incompetence became satisfaction
I have lost my way
I will sway either way
CPOD : 20 something woes
Source: http://padma-secrets.blogspot.in
Author: Padma Kumar Vemuri
Well, I am 20 something or rather early 20's. I am trying to explain my situation here, its pretty complex and typical.
When your 20 something or in your early 20's
1) Your probably a recent college grad.
2) Jobless
3) single
4) financially dependent on your parents or credit cards.
5) none of your friends are with you anymore every one is busy with their own problems and life.
6) Alcholic/smoker/god know what else which is not by any means good for health.
7) believing in horoscopes wishing it predicts when you you will get a job.
8) and desperately want to be successful in life and solve all your miseries with that one job.
Well, I am in one of these dudes. This is probably one of my worst phases of my life. I am just out of school grad looking for a job in a IT industry( which is very 'Indian' btw ) dreaming to make it big one day in silicon valley but besides that I don't have friends around me to hang out with. all of them are spread out to the length and breadth of the country and you try to make new friends whom you see around your block, who are still going to school, they don't talk to you cause your too old for them and its not 'cool' and if your trying to make friends with people who work, they don't like you either cause your too young to discuss work and politics.So, basically in a situation where facebook,twitter, youtube, yahoo and google are your best hangout places and mostly,wikipedia cause you prepare for the interview.
Now, After all that comes the love of your life. <3 Love is in fact the other huge problem for an average 20 something dude. Some of them are lucky enough to find their love and live with them for the rest of their lives and others are also lucky enough not to find one and they keep looking for one. But they are few others,these are the worst kind, who find their soul mate but don't have time or resources to make that connection.
The latter kind find it even worse, They do not know if they should keep everything aside and go after the love of their lives or just find some one else considering the fact I read in a physcology book which says "They are not just one but many soul mates for everyone in this world". And after all that, you will have competition to win her over other dudes whom you think do not deserve her.
Finally you come to the conclusion that 'Life has to move on'. A new day, A new life, A new struggle.
Cheers.
Poetic kill: Kings and Gods
had wrong doings as a right of my own
The other kings perished cause of the power of I owned
I had a dictate for which no forbearer seeds could be born
I had slaves ministers and administers too
But I had a story teller who would tell tales of my benevolence , one or two
And he would write hitherto with spices added twice
Which when generation came ,could challenge, but fail ,young or wise
I became the epitome of justice and saviour of all
Questioning me became a thorn in the eyes of the all
All who seeked power , all who seeked solace became my crusaders
Then for the world there was I and none another
There were kings too in their lands unknown
We would battle forever
For a story which wasn't rightly told ever
And wasn't rightly told ever
The world of philosophers
The day we realize we are wrong , it is the only moment we will start doing it right
The world is left with crude jingoism and jargon-ism
Every literate has taken the path of the philosopher , rest one can read and infer a many , but understand a few
Accepting truth is the trait of the enlightened , while none knows about the truth
Our emotions, our social acceptance, our fake ideologies have taken precedence over reality or the world's definition of reality , which we conveniently accept with all our level of intelligence or knowledge of literature
Don't believe ...start searching
The temple of ruins
I am afraid of the dark unless it is the darkness in the hills of belapur and the old Devi temple which lies in clear sight. No one notices it though. But every now and then everyone who took an opportunity to look up in the hills wouldnt miss it.
When I was a teenager, I had those hills as last resort to my personal chaos, I never felt more empowered or secured except for my temple of ruins.
The temple of ruins , though not absolutely in ruins , lied absolutely in the midst of heaven and earth , laid before you in plain sight. A small walk through the central ground( now named the rajiv Gandhi maidan) which can give a clear sight of the hills and the temple.
The central ground was the azad maidan of belapur , a cricket heaven when you had a lot of fielders to play the game or during summer and winter, a crab and dragonfly hunting ground during the rains. Would give you a chance to watch a snake or an alligator!
Once across the central ground , we had to cross the small bridge over the channel of the dam, which was created not as a reservoir but as a channel to control the beautiful waterfall from its source, and then going through a small village , I would start the ascend.
The first few moments of small stairs , which are difficult to step on and also to jump on , I begin to climb the stairway ( stairway to heaven anyone) leaving me breathless in the first 10 minutes of climb.
Slowly after taking a breath or two , I walk through an unsolicited jungle , only to find stairs, broken and unattended, my will would scream hard to run through it only to be disappointed by my lungs and muscles. Every time I caught my breath , I would hurry through the stairs as an option to reach my freedom.
I would reach out for every tree,rock or boulder as a sense of my past and my future unknown and finally it was there.
The temple , which laid in clear sight and known to a few , the temple which I view and from where the goddess takes care of my beautiful small town, with creeks, hills and waterfalls.
My town I am in love with you